Curious?

I believe I reached a spiritual enlightenment somewhere along the past year. There are many curious creatures around this world that we have not opened our eyes to. They flitter about here and there. Their wings beat with a fervor to catch our attention, yet our blind spots do not open. While one aims to meet the moon, they fail to capture the beauty of the innocence surrounding.

IDK IDK IDK

Life is a confusing shit piled into a blender. Sometimes I wonder why I bother trying. The only person I truly like with my heart and might even love doesn't give a fuck where I am or what I do. He doesn't care what I think or anything. Karma and my life are bitches...

Love hurts...

"What's in a name in which we call a rose, by any other word would smell as sweet." -Shakespeare...

How confusing and frustrating. Spending hours and hours on countless thoughts only to have it destroyed in a second. How a rose bends along with the wind, but growing with another breaks the same. It is not the same as "Oh damn! My boyfriend wants to have *** with him..." but rather "Why should I stay away from my true love, oh to protect him" If only parents could understand that loves blooms in even the darkest caves, that even the weakest bird flies.

I go to sleep everyday thinking of a way to be together. I go to sleep everyday with your face as the last thing I see. And when my spirits drop, it's your arms wrapping around me, it's your voice telling me that every thing's OK, it's your lips silencing my depressing thoughts. So even though you're the perfect one for me, we are not allowed to spend eternity in each other's arms?

Unwanted Control

Well, it has been awhile since I posted, there being a reason for that too, but....

It's quite crucial how important a parent's role in a kid's life is. One wrong move, one wrong word, and your child is scarred forever. However, there is a greater fear out there. Choices that the child has never even thought of are now her actions. How a parent can have such an audacity to close their eyes, and blind themselves from their children?

Fluttering close to the mother, a baby hummingbird mimics and tries to suck the nectar out. But, what if the baby wanted change? What if the baby wanted to be something new? Nature doesn't hold you back, mother nature encourages you, for she gives all the seasons for animals to try new ways of survival. But the adults feel they know best due to BEING ALIVE LONGER!

but they don't.... children are the sole source of happiness, and if people learn to accept that...

if... the big question if...

November 9, 2009

A few words can be the mistake of a lifetime. You hear the words weave your way into your ears, and then when you are talking to someone you find those same words spilling out of your mouth... and suddenly the world is against you for having repeated it, though it wasn't your fault. Sometimes not talking at all seems like a good choice.

October 25, 2009

It took me several tries to write this one...yet, I still stand blank about the subject.
The divine beauty of a rose is admired from afar, shall you dare to go near and let your fingers slide over the smooth beauty of the petals. Slide slowly downward and the pain acknowledges itself. A single drop of blood, as pure as a child's innocent drop hangs from your finger. The thorn of such a beauty would instantly hurt you.
Now, I wonder what won't hurt me?

October 23, 2009

Today the sun was shining brightly. I felt the warm rays kiss my cheeks when I stepped onto the sidewalk. On normal bases, the sun would never please me, but today it was different. The warmth wrapped around me like a mother holding her child, while the cool wind blew my hair in different directions. A moment which I would like to capture and relive it again and again.
Ever feel like what you're doing is so horrific, nobody will trust you after that? Every day of my life, I am filled with conflicts in which I stand undecided. And somehow, every choice I make is...or is going to negatively affect me. Guilt, wonder, shock, amazement.....never should be together. But in life, haha, everything is messed up, am I right?
I don't feel like writing very much today, due to my lack of intelligence, but hey....